I follow you into the dark.
Treading over ashy trails left behind,
sheltering myself from the ever pouring rain under the slanted, dingy patio running along the length of the misty alley way.
Your hooded silhouette only dimly illuminated by flickering street lights and a lit cigarette leaning against the chalky brick wall fascinates me.
You stand beneath the downpour nonchalantly;
damp and doused,
choosing not to move.
Deeply inhaling the toxic mists dancing all around you,
you smile crookedly,
as if in some darkly magical way they stream throughout your blood stream,
releasing endorphins and evoking pleasurable emotions.
You tilt your head back blissfully and stare at the hazy night sky,
thunder bolts crack and sirens are wailing off in the distance but you do not budge;
you notice only the glistening stars and enveloping smoke,
your sensuality is raw and refreshing.
I wish I could become the indestructible person you appear to be in this very moment,
so very simple and untroubled,
free of doubts and worries,
unharmed by the corrupt world;
unadulterated like the imperishable heavens above us.
But I notice the details and fine points;
my mind is inundated with words, stories and problems that once did not belong to me,
but now make up my very being,
and I know you feel the same way too.
The way you mournfully frown at wilting flower beds and unsuccessfully yearn to resurrect them,
or the hours you spend writing letters to your loved ones ‘just in case’,
even the way you approach people who sit alone most of the time and speak to them unreservedly murmuring to me before you wander off that: ’they have the most engaging stories to tell’.
You worry about the world and the people within it,
it’s never about you anymore.
But in these few unscathed moments where you give into your senses,
you truly come to life,
and I want so badly to dive into you,
explore the world you keep hidden away.
You cloud my senses in all the worst ways but I do not care anymore;
I want to be engulfed by your very essence,
breathe in nothing but your enchanting fumes;
I want to disband myself from all else but you,
get tangled and tied up in your details,
lost in the very thought of you.
You hold within you an untarnished universe,
let us exist freely in a sphere of our own,
create stars and galaxies unheard of before,
I want you to take me away from this nefarious world.”